Monday, June 30, 2008

for michel poiccard,who died at my house again the other day.

this is the only piece of machinery i have ever had any true emotion for.can you believe i found a blood red Stingray Corvette at a run-down palace(home to one of the Maharajas of Vadhwan) we'd stopped at on the way to Kachch?
i could have cried.

i don't like these renderings too much,but they're the best i could lay my hands on.
i used to know someone who did the most earnest renderings of automobiles i've seen to date,always wondered what he'd do with the body of a corvette,but well, we never got to that part.

you could take the image below to be an ode to him then.

here are some superbly blurred images of some super work.
see...the macbook pro and it's camera have been made for slobs like me who can't get themselves to shuffle to get a scan,but can raise the book in front of it's screen for a few seconds as an ode to their visual trauma.yes.that i can do.
milann can lift book.

so this is a piece on cotton called 'bulls' by the artists bhupendra desai and d.m. shah,weaver's service centre,bombay.
according to the book 'the horns of the animals are delicately dye-painted with a brush,but their bodies are established as a flat wash by dabbing with a dye-soaked cloth.although the figures differ in shape.the half-tone penumbra that surrounds each is remarkable for its controlled depth and uniformity.'

ok ok so i'll get a scan and put it up.

because it must be read. II

so here's some 'A' grade response i got to the JD Salinger post! :)
This is from an old friend who's shared this penchant for shuffling the tight ropes he walks on with me ,right from the start.straight from the heart.

I Loved this :""I like mothers. They give me a terrific kick.""
I used to do same thing since childhood may be since 2 nd class when ever I went to my friends places and mom want to know about these kids like how they used to speak ,what all they want to listen, and I used to see their eyes filled with lots of glaze .But the funny part was my mom never used to ask about me to my friends, may be she thought she knows inside out of me ...but i like that Kick...
When I met your father at college i talked what I felt what he wanted to listen I loved his eyes at that time it was also kick but honestly i did not made up anything in ur case it was true that s the best part ...

"I came home for the race," I said
I feel it everyday..why should i do something

""I like girls I haven't met yet; girls that you can just see the backs of their heads, a few seats ahead of you on the train. I like a million things. I like sitting here with you. No kidding, Phoeb. I like just sitting here with you.""
I really feel this

""I lay awake for a pretty long time, feeling lousy. I knew everybody was right and I was wrong. I knew that I wasn't going to be one of those successful guys, that I was never going to be like Edward Gonzales or Theodore Fisher or Lawrence Meyer. I knew that this time when Father said that I was going to work in that man's office that he meant it, that I wasn't going back to school again ever, that I wouldn't like working in an office. I started wondering again where the ducks in Central Park went when the lagoon was frozen over, and finally I went to sleep.""
I get this whenever I find some parallel thought of mine done before me :(

send me across the full text and nice talking yesterday night:)


Saturday, June 28, 2008

because it must be read.

this is about possibly my all time favorite author and real life recluse JD Salinger (Jerome David Salinger).
if nothing else you might have heard of his book 'Catcher in the Rye',after a copy of it was found to be always carried by John Lennon's killer,Mark Chapman,and it rose absurdly to being an agreeable book to have around.
this is a short story of his i adore for unchartered reasons.
and no you don't get it hidden in an html link,you'll have to scroll a little,it's going to be splattered all over this page for awhile.
i have prints,but i can't come around with the text now can I?so there.

give this a read and if you likey,let me know and i can make more available.
you know where to reach me.

J. D. Salinger
I'm Crazy
Collier's CXVI, December 22 1945, pages 36, 48, 51

IT WAS about eight o’clock at night, and dark, and raining, and freezing, and the wind was noisy the way it is in spooky movies on the night the old slob with the will gets murdered. I stood by the cannon on the top of Thomsen Hill, freezing to death, watching the big south windows of the gym—shining big and bright and dumb, like the windows of a gymnasium, and nothing else (but maybe you never went to a boarding school).

I just had on my reversible and no gloves. Somebody had swiped my camel’s hair the week before, and my gloves were in the pocket. Boy, I was cold. Only a crazy guy would have stood there. That’s me. Crazy. No kidding, I have a screw loose. But I had to stand there to feel the goodby to the youngness of the place, as though I were an old man. The whole school was down below in the gym for the basketball game with the Saxon Charter slobs, and I was standing there to feel the goodby.

I stood there—boy, I was freezing to death—and I kept saying goodby to myself, “Good-by, Caulfield. Goodby, you slob.” I kept seeing myself throwing a football around, with Buhler and Jackson, just before it got dark on the September evenings, and I knew I’d never throw a football around ever again with the same guys at the same time. It was as though Buhler and Jackson and I had done something that had died and been buried, and only I knew about it, and no one was at the funeral but me. So I stood there, freezing.

The game with the Saxon Charter slobs was in the second half, and you could hear everybody yelling: deep and terrific on the Pentey side of the gym, and scrawny and faggoty on the Saxon Charter side, because the Saxon bunch never brought more than the team with them and a few substitutes and managers. You could tell all right when Schutz or Kinsella or Tuttle had sunk one on the slobs, because then the Pentey side of the gym went crazy. But I only half cared who was winning. I was freezing and I was only there anyway to feel the goodby, to be at the funeral of me and Buhler and Jackson throwing a football around in the September evenings—and finally on one of the cheers I felt the goodby like a real knife, I was strictly at the funeral.

So all of a sudden, after it happened, I started running down Thomsen Hill, with my suitcases banging the devil out of my legs. I ran all the way down to the Gate; then I stopped and got my breath; then I ran across Route 202—it was icy and I fell and nearly broke my knee—and then I disappeared into Hessey Avenue. Disappeared. You disappeared every time you crossed a street that night. No kidding.

When I got to old Spencer’s house—that’s where I was going—I put down my bags on the porch, rang the bell hard and fast and put my hands on my ears—boy, they hurt. I started talking to the door. “C’mon, c’mon!” I said. “Open up. I’m freezing.” Finally Mrs. Spencer came.

“Holden!” she said. “Come in, dear!” She was a nice woman. Her hot chocolate on Sundays was strictly lousy, but you never minded.

I got inside the house fast.

“Are you frozen to death? You must be soaking wet,” Mrs. Spencer said. She wasn’t the kind of woman that you could just be a little wet around: you were either real dry or soaking. But she didn’t ask me what I was doing out of bounds, so I figured old Spencer had told her what happened.

I put down my bags in the hall and took off my hat—boy, I could hardly work my fingers enough to grab my hat. I said, “How are you, Mrs. Spencer? How’s Mr. Spencer’s grippe? He over it okay?”

“Over it!” Mrs. Spencer said. “Let me take your coat, dear. Holden, he’s behaving like a perfect I-don’t-know-what. Go right in, dear. He’s in his room.”

Old Spencer had his own room next to the kitchen. He was about sixty years old, maybe even older, but he got a kick out of things in a half-shot way. If you thought about old Spencer you wondered what he was living for, everything about over for him and all. But if you thought about him that way, you were thinking about him the wrong way: you were thinking too much. If you thought about him just enough, not too much, you knew he was doing all right for himself. In a half-shot way he enjoyed almost everything all the time. I enjoy things terrifically, but just once in a while. Sometimes it makes you think maybe old people get a better deal. But I wouldn’t trade places. I wouldn’t want to enjoy almost everything all the time if it had to be in just a half-shot way.

Old Spencer was sitting in the big easy chair in his bedroom, all wrapped up in the Navajo blanket he and Mrs. Spencer bought in Yellowstone Park about eighty years ago. They probably got a big bang out of buying it off the Indians.

“Come in, Caulfield!” old Spencer yelled at me. “Come in, boy!”

I went in.

THERE was an opened copy of the Atlantic Monthly face down on his lap, and pills all over the place and bottles and a hot-water bottle. I hate seeing a hot-water bottle, especially an old guy’s. That isn’t nice, but that’s the way I feel…Old Spencer certainly looked beat out. He certainly didn’t look like a guy who ever behaved like a perfect I-don’t-know-what. Probably Mrs. Spencer just liked to think he was acting that way, as if she wanted to think maybe the old guy was still full of beans.

“I got your note, sir,” I told him. “I would have come over anyway before I left. How’s your grippe?”

“If I felt any better, boy, I’d have to send for the doctor,” old Spencer said. That really knocked him out. “Sit down, boy,” he said, still laughing. “Why in the name of Jupiter aren’t you down at the game?”

I sat down on the edge of the bed. It sort of looked like an old guy’s bed. I said, “Well, I was at the game a while, sir. But I’m going home tonight instead of tomorrow. Dr. Thurmer said I could go tonight if I really wanted to. So I’m going.”

“Well, you certainly picked a honey of a night,” old Spencer said. He really thought that over. “Going home tonight, eh?” he said.

“Yes, sir,” I said.

He said to me, “What did Dr. Thurmer say to you, boy?”

“Well, he was pretty nice in his way, sir,” I said. “He said about life being a game. You know. How you should play it by the rules and all. Stuff like that. He wished me a lot of luck. In the future and all. That kind of stuff.”

I guess Thurmer really was pretty nice to me in his slobby way, so I told old Spencer a few other things Thurmer had said to me. About applying myself in life if I wanted to get ahead and all. I even made up some stuff, old Spencer was listening so hard and nodding all the while.

Then old Spencer asked me, “Have you communicated with your parents yet?”

“No, sir,” I said. “I haven’t communicated with them because I’ll see them tonight.”

Old Spencer nodded again. He asked me, “How will they take the news?”

“Well,” I said, “they hate this kind of stuff. This is the third school I’ve been kicked out of. Boy! No kidding.” I told him.

Old Spencer didn’t nod this time. I was bothering him, poor guy. He suddenly lifted the Atlantic Monthly off his lap, as though it had got too heavy for him, and chucked it towards the bed. He missed. I got up and picked it up and laid it on the bed. All of a sudden I wanted to get the heck out of there.

Old Spencer said, “What’s the matter with you, boy? How many subjects did you carry this term?”

“Four,” I said.

“And how many did you flunk?” he said.

“Four,” I said.

Old Spencer started staring at the spot on the rug where the Atlantic Monthly had fallen when he tried to chuck it on the bed. He said, “I flunked you in history because you knew absolutely nothing. You were never once prepared, either for examinations or for daily recitations. Not once. I doubt if you opened your textbook once during the term; did you?”

I told him I’d glanced through it a couple of times, so’s not to hurt his feelings. He thought history was really hot. It was all right with me if he thought I was a real dumb guy, but I didn’t want him to think I’d given his book the freeze.

“Your exam paper is on my chiffonier over there,” he said. “Bring it over here.”

I went over and got it and handed it to him and sat down on the edge of the bed again.

Old Spencer handled my exam paper as though it were something catching that he had to handle for the good of science or something, like Pasteur or one of those guys.

He said, “We studied the Egyptians from November 3d to December 4th. You chose to write about them for the essay question, from a selection of twenty-five topics. This is what you had to say:

“ ‘The Egyptians were an ancient race of people living in one of the northernmost sections of North Africa, which is one of the largest continents in the Eastern Hemisphere as we all know. The Egyptians are also interesting to us today for numerous reasons. Also, you read about them frequently in the Bible. The Bible is full of amusing anecdotes about the old Pharaohs. They were all Egyptians, as we all know’.”

Old Spencer looked up at me. “New paragraph,” he said. “ ‘What is most interesting about the Egyptians was their habits. The Egyptians had many interesting ways of doing things. Their religion was also very interesting. They buried their dead in tombs in a very interesting way. The dead Pharaohs had their faces wrapped up in specially treated cloths to prevent their features from rotting. Even to this day physicians don’t know what that chemical formula was, thus all our faces rot when we are dead for a certain length of time.’ ” Old Spencer looked over the paper at me again. I stopped looking at him. If he was going to look up at me every time he hit the end of a paragraph, I wasn’t going to look at him.

“ ‘There are many things about the Egyptians that help us in our everyday life,’ ” old Spencer said. Then he said: “The End.” He put down my paper and chucked it towards the bed. He missed. The bed was only about two feet from his chair. I got up and put my exam paper on top of the Atlantic Monthly.

“Do you blame me for flunking you, boy?” old Spencer asked me. “What would you have done in my place?”

“The same thing,” I said. “Down with the morons.” But I wasn’t giving it much thought at the minute. I was sort of wondering if the lagoon in Central Park would be frozen over when I got home, and if it was frozen over would everybody be ice skating when you looked out the window in the morning, and where did the ducks go, what happened to the ducks when the lagoon was frozen over. But I couldn’t have told all that to old Spencer.

He asked me, “How do you feel about all this, boy?”

“You mean my flunking out and all, sir?” I said.

“Yes,” he said.

Well, I tried to give it some thought because he was a nice guy and because he kept missing the bed all the time when he chucked something at it.

“Well, I’m sorry I’m flunking out, for lots of reasons,” I said. I knew I could never really get it over to him. Not about standing on Thomsen Hill and thinking about Buhler and Jackson and me. “Some of the reasons would be hard to explain right off, sir,” I told him. “But tonight, for instance, “I said. “Tonight I had to pack my bags and put my ski boots in them. The ski boots made me sorry I’m leaving. I could see my mother chasing around stores, asking the salesmen a million dumb questions. Then she bought me the wrong kind anyway. Boy, she’s nice, though. No kidding. That’s mostly why I’m sorry I’m flunking out. On account of my mother and the wrong ski boots.” That’s all I said. I had to quit.

OLD Spencer was nodding the whole time, as though he understood it all, but you couldn’t tell whether he was nodding because he was going to understand anything I might tell him, or if he was only nodding because he was just a nice old guy with the grippe and a screwball on his hands.

“You’ll miss the school, boy,” he said to me.

He was a nice guy. No kidding. I tried to tell him some more. I said, “Not exactly, sir. I’ll miss some stuff. I’ll miss going and coming to Pentey on the train; going back to the dining car and ordering a chicken sandwich and a Coke, and reading five new magazines with all the pages slick and new. And I’ll miss the Pentey stickers on my bag. Once a lady saw them and asked me if I knew Andrew Warbach. She was Warbach’s mother, and you know Warbach, sir. Strictly a louse. He’s the kind of a guy, when you were a little kid, that twisted your wrist to get the marbles out of your hand. But his mother was all right. She should have been in a nut house, like most mothers, but she loved Warbach. You could see in her nutty eyes that she thought he was hot stuff. So I spent nearly an hour on the train telling her what a hot shot Warbach is at school, how none of the guys ever make a move and all without going to Warbach first. It knocked Mrs. Warbach out. She nearly rolled in the aisle. She probably half knew he was a louse in her heart, but I changed her mind. I like mothers. They give me a terrific kick.”

I stopped. Old Spencer wasn’t following. Maybe he was a little bit, but not enough to make me want to get into it deep. Anyway, I wasn’t saying much that I wanted to say. I never do. I’m crazy. No kidding.

Old Spencer said: “Do you plan to go to college, boy?”

“I have no plans, sir,” I said. “I live from one day to the next.” It sounded phony, but I was beginning to feel phony. I was sitting there on the edge of that bed too long. I got up suddenly.

“I guess I better go, sir,” I said. “I have to catch a train. You’ve been swell. No kidding.”

Well, old Spencer asked me if I didn’t want a cup of hot chocolate before I left, but I said no thanks. I shook hands with him. He was sweating pretty much. I told him I’d write him a letter sometime, that he shouldn’t worry about me, that he oughtn’t to let me get him down. I told him that I knew I was crazy. He asked me if I were sure I didn’t want any hot chocolate, that it wouldn’t take long.

“No,” I said, “goodby, sir. Take it easy with your grippe now.”

“Yes,” he said, shaking hands with me again. “Goodby, boy.”

He called something after me while I was leaving, but I couldn’t hear him. I think it was good luck. I really felt sorry for him. I knew what he was thinking: how young I was, how I didn’t know anything about the world and all, what happened to guys like me and all. I probably got him down for a while after I left, but I’ll bet later on he talked me over with Mrs. Spencer and felt better, and he probably had Mrs. Spencer hand him his Atlantic Monthly before she left the room.

It was after one that night when I got home, because I shot the bull for around a half-hour with Pete, the elevator boy. He was telling me all about his brother-in-law. His brother-in-law is a cop, and he shot a guy; he didn’t need to, but he did it to be a big shot, and now Pete’s sister didn’t like to be around Pete’s brother-in-law any more. It was tough. I didn’t feel so sorry for Pete’s sister, but I felt sorry for Pete’s brother-in-law, the poor slob.

JEANNETTE, our colored maid, let me in. I lost my key somewhere. She was wearing one of those aluminum jobs in her hair, guaranteed to remove the kink.

“What choo doin’ home, boy?” she said. “What choo doin’ home, boy?” She says everything twice.

I was pretty sick and tired of people calling me “boy,” so I just said, “Where are the folks?”

“They playin’ bridge,” she said. “They playin’ bridge. What choo doin’ home, boy?”

“I came home for the race,” I said.

“What race?” the dope said.

“The human race. Ha, ha, ha,” I said. I dropped my bags and coat in the hall and got away from her. I shoved my hat on the back of my head, feeling pretty good for a change, and walked down the hall and opened Phoebe and Viola’s door. It was pretty dark, even with the door open, and I nearly broke my neck getting over to Phoebe’s bed.

I sat down on her bed. She was asleep, all right.

“Phoebe,” I said. “Hey, Phoebe!”

She waked up pretty easily.

“Holden!” she said anxiously. “What are you doing home? What’s the matter? What happened?”

“Aah, the same old stuff,” I said. “What’s new?”

“Holdie, what are you doing home?” she said. She’s only ten, but when she wants an answer she wants an answer.

“What’s the matter with your arm?” I asked her. I noticed a hunk of adhesive tape on her arm.

“I banged it on the wardrobe doors,” she said. “Miss Keefe made me Monitor of the Wardrobe. I’m in charge of everybody’s garments.” But she got right back to it again. “Holdie,” she said, “what are you doing home?”

She sounds like a goody-good, but it was only when it came to me. That’s because she likes me. She’s no goody-good, though. Phoebe’s strictly one of us, for a kid.

“I’ll be back in a minute,” I told her, and I went back in the living room and got some cigarettes out of one of the boxes, put them in my pocket; then I went back. Phoebe was sitting up straight, looking fine. I sat down on her bed again.

“I got kicked out again,” I told her.

“Holden!” she said, “Daddy’ll kill you.”

“I couldn’t help it, Phoeb,” I said. “They kept shoving stuff at me, exams and all, and study periods, and everything was compulsory all the time. I was going crazy. I just didn’t like it.”

“But, Holden,” Phoebe said, “you don’t like anything.” She really looked worried.

“Yes, I do. Yes, I do. Don’t say that, Phoeb,” I said. “I like a heck of a lot of stuff.”

Phoebe said, “What? Name one thing.”

“I don’t know. Gosh, I don’t know,” I told her. “I can’t think any more today. I like girls I haven’t met yet; girls that you can just see the backs of their heads, a few seats ahead of you on the train. I like a million things. I like sitting here with you. No kidding, Phoeb. I like just sitting her with you.”

“Go to bed, Viola,” Phoebe said. Viola was up. “She squeezes right out through the bars,” Phoebe told me.

I picked up Viola and sat her on my lap. A crazy kid if ever there was one, but strictly one of us.

“Holdie,” Viola said, “make Jeannette give me Donald Duck.”

“Viola insulted Jeannette, and Jeannette took away her Donald Duck,” Phoebe said.

“Her breath is always all the time bad,” Viola told me.

“Her breath,” Phoebe said. “She told Jeannette her breath was bad. When Jeannette was putting on her leggings.”

“Jeannette breathes on me all the time,” Viola said, standing on me.

I asked Viola if she had missed me, but she looked as though she weren’t sure whether or not I’d been away.

“Go on back to bed now, Viola,” Phoebe said. “She squeezes right out through the bars.”

“Jeannette breathes on me all the time and she took away Donald Duck,” Viola told me again.

“Holden’ll get it back,” Phoebe told her. Phoebe wasn’t like other kids. She didn’t take sides with the maid.

I GOT up and carried Viola back to her crib and put her in it. She asked me to bring her something, but I couldn’t understand her.

“Ovvels,” Phoebe said. “Olives. She’s crazy about olives now. She wants to eat olives all the time. She rang the elevator bell when Jeannette was out this afternoon and had Pete open up a can of olives for her.”

“Ovvels,” Viola said. “Bring ovvels, Holdie.”

“Okay,” I said.

“With the red in them,” Viola said.

I told her okay, and said to go to sleep. I tucked her in, then I started to go back where Phoebe was, only I stopped so short it almost hurt. I heard them come in.

“That’s them!” Phoebe whispered. “I can hear Daddy!”

I nodded, and walked toward the door. I took off my hat.

“Holdie!” Phoebe whispered at me. “Tell ‘em how sorry you are. All that stuff. And how you’ll do better next time!”

I just nodded.

“Come back!” Phoebe said. “I’ll stay awake!”

I went out and shut the door. I wished I had hung up my coat and put away my bags. I knew they’d tell me how much the coat cost and how people tripped over bags and broke their necks.

When they were all done with me I went back to the kids’ room. Phoebe was asleep, and I watched her awhile. Nice kid. Then I went over to Viola’s crib. I lifted her blanket and put her Donald Duck in there with her; then I took some olives I had in my left hand and laid them on by one in a row along the railing of her crib. One of them fell on the floor. I picked it up, felt dust on it, and put it in my jacket pocket. Then I left the room.

I went into my own room, turned the radio on, but it was broken. So I went to bed.

I lay awake for a pretty long time, feeling lousy. I knew everybody was right and I was wrong. I knew that I wasn’t going to be one of those successful guys, that I was never going to be like Edward Gonzales or Theodore Fisher or Lawrence Meyer. I knew that this time when Father said that I was going to work in that man’s office that he meant it, that I wasn’t going back to school again ever, that I wouldn’t like working in an office. I started wondering again where the ducks in Central Park went when the lagoon was frozen over, and finally I went to sleep.


this was one of the series of short stories he wrote before the character of this one,Holden Caulfield, finally broke out to take up the space time of a novel ,in 'Catcher in the Rye'. JD published all the redrafts too.
i confess i have been quite in love with Holden since I was what... 15?

lennon's killer on the day of the shooting,hung around john and yoko's building the entire day,missed him once even while he was getting into the building.mark chapman stayed on though,in his statement he said, "At that point my big part won and I wanted to go back to my hotel, but I couldn't. I waited until he came back. He knew where the ducks went in winter, and I needed to know this" .

strange words from JD.
i think they breathe.

Friday, June 27, 2008

so i'm writing this dissertation,
the only way i can keep writing for it is if it spills over deal with it.
and if it's too much godard for everyone,it can't be helped.

for now..nana has something to say..
'Vivre Sa Vie',Godard,1962.
'I think we're always responsible for our actions.We're free.
I raise my hand,I'm responsible.
I turn my head,I'm responsible.
I am unhapppy,I'm responsible.
I smoke,I'm responsible.
I shut my eyes,I'm responsible.
I forget I'm responsible,but I am..

..A message is a message.
Plates are plates.
Men are men.
And life is life.'
Godard tracks to and from Nana.
Sounds of a commotion fill the café Yvette and Nana sit at.A car screeches,the camera pans in jerks, in time to the machine gun fire heard.Godard draws analogies though his visuals to his text.
The camera rests at the door.
and i rest my case beside it.
good god.

if the link up there doesn't work,you could look out for chapter 6 on this page

Monday, June 23, 2008

i'm not feeling very verbose today.

so i really appreciate it when these guys falter into flying with the cuckoos by the way,by 'these guys' i mean the 'designers' ,when they aren't trying to rethink how to put one foot in front of the other.
what am i talking about...?....well,there's this old story about one of the musketeers,see?it's about the slightly daft one,i've forgotten his name...anyway, so he's planted a bomb and he sets it's fuse off and then runs right? but while he was running,he starts thinking...'how is it that i run,i mean how does the other foot 'know' it has to follow the first',and then the bomb goes off,and he dies.coz he couldn't move once he started the thought.
but hey they've got great REM bedcloth right here,look under 'subjective cloth'!

eduardo bertone on a moleskine


sometimes i think this guy kills himself with his own texture though..

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

it hurts less today than it did yesterday.

i will destroy you.

i love the second pics caption the
i've been trying to get these guys on for the longest time...this is Andrew Bell and the Dead Zebra Inc. with the creatures in their head..

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

set theory

how come what seems to be encouraged in today's world is the cutting away from thought,from thinking.
how does this system work…?
what causes it to keep moving on in it's orbit?
it is possible that there are a lot of people here who know it does not exist.
but they seem to persist in making it carry on because they need it to carry on.
it is a system they would rather not have die because it is a haven ,a refuge, an escape from the world which while seeming to be fully functional provides no shelter for those in questioning or those with the questions
it is possibly for these last laggers behind that the system persists .
so that they might gain entry into the system, assess it for what it was and is now and then learn to survive inspite of it, ‘it’ being a system in the end after all.
in my constant endeavors to find something that belies the hoax that screams out from every person in this place, I hope to find someone who does still believe. who acts out how they believe. who still does not adopt fake virtues and charms so as to be able to be allowed to live. someone who would for that little inkling of a moment ,let it show.

May 07,2007.
'the life taught by cinema can never be extracted from it’s imaginary element:it must be grasped as something material in motion;driven by the viscitudes of light but drawn together by the demands of form;shaped by relationships without being seized by any single configuration;manifested as an attitude and posture towards others rather than a stance or pose for ourselves.'

i don't remember where i took this down from.but good god what am i going to be when i grow up.
i titter as i ride on.
'i smile at seeeing him so lively,when his establishment empties,his head empties too.between two and four the café is deserted,and then Monsieur Fasquelle takes a few dazed steps,the waiters turn off the lights,and he slips into unconsciousness:when this man is alone,he falls asleep.'

Jean Paul Sartre,'Nausea'
the buttons aren't letting me put up pics on today.

i'm being stood up by my blog now.

tic tic

it is strange how words can have the power of exerting a higher force than just an absent listening. it threatens to change that thought structure for good.
I have thoughts I must get into the habit of writing down now.
it feels strange being witness to this organism grow…this method of detracting from the self and analyzing what one sees every day.

watching one's own mind.

speaking of which,you might want to look through the eerie artwork this woman Audrey Kawasaki comes up with,some of the work here done with graphite on wood does make you pause for a bit.i like her rough sketches better though,they look a lot like some early klimt sketches i came across once.

like the one above is by audrey and the one below is one of klimt's primary sketches...hmmm..


'since, on a socio-economic level,there are myriad wrongs that need to be righted,a major problem for the species seems to be how to assist the unfortunate,throttle the corrupt,preserve the biosphere,and effectively organise for socio economic alteration without the organisation being taken over by dullards,the people who ironically are best suited to serving organised causes since they seldom have anything more imaginative to do and,restricted by tunnel vision,probably wouldn't do it if they had.'

Tom Robbins,'Still Life With Woodpecker'

par joris ivens

Those who these days want to fight against lies and ignorance and want to write the truth must overcome atleast five difficulties.They must have the courage to write the truth despite it being suppressed on all sides;the intelligence to distinguish it,even though it is concealed;the artistry to make it manageable as a weapon;the descrimination to choose those in whose hands it is effective;the cunning to propagate it among them.

Bertolt Brecht,1935

we are then faced with a host of questions:which truth and for whom ? seen by whom and for whom? will it be the whole truth or will it be a part of it? in this case,which part?lastly,to what use will this truth be put?
what must be the artistic expression of truth,the truth of life in front of the camera? the truth as an expression of ourselves?

from my readings by and on joris ivens,one of the few avant garde film makers i have respect for.i'd suggest you see a piece of his work before you read up on him,how much gag can one take written about other people anyway.
joris ivens speaks for himself here,the film i'm talking about is called 'regen' (rain/ la pluie),the second film on the page.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

la femme seule

found a place where they have quite an admirable collection of women and their representation in art through the ages....some of my favorites follow...the cream being rené magritte's,they're the first two of the images below. even better if you're listening to schubert via yehudi menuhin or maybe
just through the words of Fuss,
'Identification is both voluntary and involuntary,necessary and difficult,dangerous and effectual,naturalizing and denaturalizing.Identification is the point where the physical/social distiction becomes impossibly confused and finally untenable'

Monday, June 2, 2008

design for the creative

unfortunately the source gives me trouble all the time...only this nugget to offer.the birds just fit the bottle shapes.bloody poetry!: )

where i've been at

on the street,with the wooster collective who've made it their mission to record the stunning street art they chance upon from around the world.i couldn't stop gawking.

from mute in athens(top)

from paris(top)

from sao paulo(top)

from buenos aires(top)

from turkey(top)

from athens(top)

from paris(top)

where I was before that!

even though i'm sure you guys have seen a lot of this kind of stuff in Bak or in the avalanche of images one seems to be bombarded with at design schools,i still found this guyalex robbins'work superbly worked out.unpretentious.the urban landscapes,yes...but unlike the artists who tend to get to be androids whilst making artwork about being androids,he still seems to be human.


yep,this is frida kahlo(top) in the artwork..

look at these guys going mad selling their fabric.
riot on an empty street!